It’s been a tough week. I’ve made a little more progress than expected.

Yeah, I had 3 midterm exams, and they kind of drained my energy, so I took a trip to relax. It was actually quite good; it’s been a while since I last took a trip, and it made me feel good again. Plus, when I spent time studying for the exams, I realized that once you truly invest your time, you can never lose. A high score is the proof.

This week, I also spent time reading the first book of Dune. To be honest, I kind of regret buying it because only 2 out of the 6 books have been translated into Vietnamese. What am I supposed to do after finishing them? I should have bought the Penguin Classics version in the first place, lol. But I mean, Dune is really good, to be honest. Reading it is incredibly enjoyable (at least for me).

And of course, I still have to work to save some cash for the IELTS test. In this kind of weather, it’s exhausting, but working hard makes me eat better, and I feel like at least I’m doing something for my own sake.

(It’s me xD)

But being a delivery driver isn’t sustainable for the long term; I’m only doing it because I haven’t landed a job in my field yet (fuck the job market). I guess I still need to improve my CS skills a bit more.

It’s been so busy lately that I’ve forgotten to practice drawing. I guess I need to finish my 3 semester projects first, then spend at least 15 minutes a day practicing.

Aside from all the academic and work chaos, I’ve also been fighting the urge to reach out to someone. I keep questioning my own motives - do I actually want to reconnect, or am I just looking for a quick fix to fill the sudden emptiness of a grueling week? I respect and value them way too much to use them as a temporary fix to fill the void just because I’m feeling lonely. So for now, I’m holding back.

I was born in May. That’s why my life is full of maybes. Maybe it’s good, maybe it’s bad. Who knows?

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